What this podcast means to me by S.Mohen
Even though I might keep saying this over and over, this is one of my favorite podcasts that we did. I think it's really a testament to how we were growing as a production team and how the project itself was falling into place. We learned how to make a better more interesting podcast and also how we should look on camera. Simple things you'd think you'd know, but really there's no "how to make a podcast" class, we kind of just did everything.
Something funny for me is having Brigitte and I together for the first time since we would later star in On the Verge together. When we shot the 'looking for a thomas' bit, Brigitte was wearing some sort of shirt that she hated, so she asked to borrow a plain one of mine...only problem is I hardly ever wore plain clothes, so she borrowed a shirt of mine that said "Barbie is a slut"...hence the blurring....
Something really cool for me, was for the first time I started to hear other people talk about my work, my script and really dedicate themself to it. Hearing Mary give such an indepth beautiful response to who Clarissa is made me love her more as an actress and a person! I knew then I had made the right choice casting.
I remember when I found out that Chapman wasn't going to give us the greenlight to make Happy Holidays in terms of using equipment and school facilities. I was walking back to rehearsal from class and saw I had a missed call. It was the assistant to someone at the film school saying the request was denied on the grounds the project was "too ambitious." I still remember that phrase...."too ambitious" just playing over and over in my head. How can you tell a student they're being too ambitious? I went straight to rehearsal, told Mary and Jeff what had happened and said we were going to keep rehearsing because well...there was no other option.
It was that moment I knew the project was for real and that it was time for me to stop saying "when I grow up I want to make movies." It was time to start saying "I am growing up and I am making movies as I go."
